Sometimes, I go through periods of intense self-doubt.  I re-examine everything I have done and find all the possible flaws and beat myself up for not having done better.  It makes me question my ability and my chosen path.  The good news is I recognize it.  I can call it out as temporary and walk through it.  There are some good lessons in these periods for me.  That said, I have to be very aware of what is happening or risk bringing my negativity into the team and self-sabotaging.

Today was one of those days.  I have had some major successes in the last two weeks.  I’ll post about a kick-butt retro with the sneetches some other time but, I couldn’t get my mind away from all the “bad”.  There’s so much I want to do.  So much I don’t know.  So much I still need to learn.  There’s just SO MUCH!

Then, I remembered….  There’s also so much I have done.  So much I do know.  So much I have learned.  I have come a long way and have done some great things.  What I’m working on right now with the team I have and the large-scale enterprise transformation isn’t easy.  There are consultants running around who have done this for decades and it’s not easy for them either.

Every single day, I’m getting better.  I will never be perfect and that’s OK.  Being perfect is overrated and boring anyway.